Testimony 13  - Emily

2nd Note:  "sa"=sexual addict    / "h"=husband

 Brothers and the moderator,
 

I debated about sending this, I subscribed for one reason and that was to say that I was very touched by a "testimony" by Van on the site. This is not about sa bashing just the contrary. I tried to contact the site but was unable to so I subscribed, I will unsubscribe once I send this or Tony please take me off, I am not here to spy or anything, please forgive me it this is a little disorganized. 

Yesterday I was ready to give up my stand, for the restoration of my marriage for my sa husband, and for some reason God brought me to this website, kinda don't even know how I got on there, but anyway. I have a lot of respect for sa who admit they have a problem and try to work on it.
 

When I read what Van wrote it brought a tear to my eyes, see my husband left me (divorced me) and the children he is very deep into sa, more than most, out of the wives group that I belong to he is 2nd to the worse, don't need to talk about pain sa causes we all know that. for 12 years I lived with a man that took and took and never once said he had a problem I am the problem, my daughter (7) says "wait for my daddy I know he is not happy without the family" and of course my h says he has never been happier without me and the kids. My h has never said that he has had a problem and when I lovingly confronted him he said I was crazy.... it is very sad
 

Lord I can not do this on my own strength, but reading Van's testimony gave me a little more strength, my h and I don't have contact, he has told me many times to leave him alone, I have given him over to our Lord and Savior. it is very difficult to see the man you love totally destroy himself, I do now and always will love my h, but there is not one thing I like about him, but that is ok, God is not concerned with my comfort, but character yes.
 

I pray I have not hurt any man on here, hope you do not feel violated as that was not my thought, if so I will ask for forgiveness. Continue with your recovery, look to Him who is strong, same yesterday, today and the future. Don't give up, I have seen what sa can do to a man, in 12 years it has totally destroyed my h.
 

I am still standing for the restoration of my marriage, until God releases me from this marriage it still stands, the 3 roped marriage is now 2 but it continues to stand. I know I will never live with an active addict, but I pray for his repentance. Sometimes I think this man has no pit. May all of you find something in your daily struggles that give you peace, I know that my h’s lifestyle will bring him emotional, spiritual and eventually physical death, he has a lawless life. This is on door satan loves to trap our men with.
 

Praying for my prodigal, and all prodigals

Thank you Lord for giving me something that I have longed for 12 years _peace

Please unsubscribe me
 

(Moderator's Note) Blessings to you all and may the peace of our Lord and Savior be with you Emily